Otalia fic - Heroes and Friends, 18/?

[calliopes_muse]

So yeah, I’m kind of nervous about this chapter.  Not sure how it will be taken or if you all will buy it.  It wasn’t what I intended but damn, if these characters don’t make my muse type the craziest things!  There is a point to this and it fits with what’s to come, I promise.  Okay, I’m going to shut up now so I can finish writing this thing. *sigh*

 

Title: Heroes and Friends

Fandom: Otalia

Rating: Mighty close to NC-17

Disclaimer: These wonderful ladies and the rest of the town belong to CBS, Telenext, and P&G. I’m just having some fun with them.

Spoilers: I don’t think so. This story picks up at the “no more waiting” gazebo scene and goes off canon.

Summary: Nat gets the shock of her life and it turns Liv’s world upside down.

Warning: Not beta’d so if it sucks, there’s only me to blame.

A/N:  Yes, I know I’m evil. Muahahahahaha! 

Links to previous chapters: Chapter 1 - Chapter 2 - Chapter 3 - Chapter 4 - Chapter 5 - Chapter 6 - Chapter 7 - Chapter 8 - Chapter 9 - Chapter 10 - Chapter 11 - Chapter 12 - Chapter 13 - Chapter 14 - Chapter 15 - Chapter 16.1 - Chapter 16.2 - Chapter 17

 

Chapter 18

 

Olivia made herself busy with searching for her pajamas, toothpaste and other items from the bags Lillian had given them.  She found the ointment for her hand and some fresh gauze and added it to her pile.  When she heard the water turn off in the bathroom sink and the door click open, she took a deep breath and waited, not daring to turn around.

 

Nothing happened.  She expected Natalia to say something or do something, but when nothing happened, she spun around and into the brunette directly behind her.  They were so close their breasts were brushing against each other.  Olivia would have moved back, but there was the edge of the dresser behind her blocking her between it and Natalia’s gorgeous body.

 

Natalia merely smiled up at her, her dark hair framing her beautiful face now that it was down.  She raised her hand and a small pill sat in her palm.

 

“Here.  I take it that it’s been a few days since you had one.”

 

Olivia shook her head and took the heart pill from her hand.  “How did you…?”

 

“Rick came by when you went to get food yesterday.  I asked him to have a prescription filled for you.”

 

She smiled at the younger woman.  “What would I do without you?”

 

The mood in the room turned suddenly thick and serious, all of the earlier teasing dissipating like the midst in the overheated bathroom, as Natalia traced a lip with the tip of her finger.  Her dark eyes stared at Olivia’s full mouth and she pressed herself impossibly closer.  When she looked up, Olivia could see tears brimming in her eyes.  “Let’s not find out anytime soon.”

 

Olivia slipped a hand into Natalia’s hair.  “I’m not going anywhere and neither are you.”

 

It was left unspoken just how close they had come to losing each other, and they’d have to deal with the emotional repercussions of that soon enough.  For now, Olivia simply pulled Natalia’s lips to hers, slowly drinking in her taste and smell, letting herself fall into the unique blend of comfort and desire that Natalia stoked in her with the gentlest touch. 

 

Natalia’s hands found the edge of Olivia’s t-shirt and slipped her hands underneath.  Her fingers played along Olivia’s spine as she tilted her head and opened to Olivia’s deepening kiss.  They were so close and on the brink.  They had nearly lost so much but were on the edge of gaining all they’d ever dreamed of.  Only a few days and so much had changed.  Natalia felt herself clinging to Olivia desperately, her nails digging into the soft skin of Olivia’s back, making her hiss and pull away from the kiss.

 

Natalia licked her lips, the words she needed to say right there but trapped on the catch in her throat.  She leaned her forehead against Olivia’s chest before turning her head to the side to hear the steady beat of her heart.  She struggled to contain the quiver in her voice.

 

Her voice was soft when she finally found it.  “Olivia, I know you wanted to wait until we’re home, but…I need something tonight.  I need to feel close to you.  I know it’s hard for you.  It’s hard for me too because I want nothing more than to make love to you, but…I think I even need something that goes beyond sex right now.”

 

Olivia swallowed, having an idea of what would help and she steeled herself to give Natalia what she needed.  Leaning back, she kissed Natalia’s forehead, the tip of her nose, and then worked her way down to softly place a chaste kiss on her lips.  She could feel her quiver a little at the sensation.

 

“I’m going to get my shower, okay?  Get in bed and wait for me.”

 

Natalia closed her eyes and nodded.  She felt a final kiss to her cheek as Olivia moved away and went to the bathroom.  Moments later, the water started to run.  She looked at the bed and sighed.  She raised a shaking hand to her lips.

 

“So close.”

 

***********

 

When Olivia came out of the bathroom, the bedroom was dark except for the flickering light of the candles.  The room was still, save for the quiet breathing of Natalia in the bed.  She looked at the dark hair spread out over the pillow.  Walking closer to the bed, she traced a finger along the edge of Natalia’s scalp, lifting the dark veil of hair away from her shoulders.

 

Olivia’s breath caught as she saw the bare skin of Natalia’s shoulder come into view and then the young woman rolled over, blinking lazily up at her.

 

“Sorry, didn’t mean to wake you.”

 

Natalia reached for the tie of Olivia’s bathrobe.  “Don’t be sorry.  Besides, all will be forgiven if you’re naked under here.”

 

Olivia shivered at the words.  How many times had she fantasized about Natalia saying sexy comments like that to her?  She couldn’t remember.  She had lost count a long time ago.  Looking down at the long fingers hesitating at the tie though, she remembered that this was her Natalia.  As bold as she tried to be right now, she saw the woman she fell for shimmering beneath the surface, the woman that prays and goes to church, that gave her her dead husband’s heart, and worked two or more jobs to make ends meet.  Looking into the searching brown eyes that wanted and needed something she couldn’t define or comprehend yet, Olivia took the soft hand at her waist into her own, raised it, and kissed the palm.

 

She’d give Natalia all she needed and more, for as long as she wanted it.

 

She walked around to the other side of the bed and watched Natalia’s eyes settle on the tie where her own hands now rested.  She undid the knot and let the two halves fall open.  She let Natalia openly appraise her.  She had never been shy about her body, but a small wave of fear passed through her mind worried that Natalia would change her mind when finally faced with the reality of their love.  Would this be too much for her?  But her mind immediately snapped closed on that thought when Natalia raised her finger and crooked it at her.

 

“Come here.”

 

Olivia smiled a little and slid the robe the rest of the way off.  Every time she thought she had pushed the boundaries a little too far with Natalia, she always surprised her.  As she slipped under the cool covers, she was surprised again to feel Natalia’s hand move to her hip and pull her close.

 

The sensation made Olivia want to jump out of her skin when she felt Natalia’s naked thighs brush against and over her own and the tickle of hair against her upper thigh made her head spin.

 

“Natalia…,” her breathing was ragged and she was scared to touch the soft skin so close to her own.  Dear God, I don’t know if I can do this.

 

“Touch me, Olivia.  I need to feel you close to me.” 

 

Natalia wrapped her arms around Olivia’s waist, bringing their bodies impossibly closer, and Olivia groaned when their breasts came in contact.

 

“Dear God, Natalia.” Her arms finally gave in and pulled the younger woman tight to her.

 

Hands buried in hair and slipped down to thighs to pull them up and over and around until they were nothing but a tangled mass of arms and legs as hands skimmed over skin, caressing and loving every inch, relishing in the feel of the connection.

 

Neither moved for a long moment as they simply let themselves connect.  Then Olivia felt the shift, a change deep inside that went deeper than her body, as they burrowed in closer to each other and the feelings bubbled up and over as the tears came.  They were both crying, whispering words reserved for lovers who had come to close to being trapped in a world without the other.  It was too close and the power of that knowledge shook them both.  Olivia cradled the woman in her arms and spoke her name softly over and over again like a mantra, letting the tears on her shoulder wash away all the hurt and pain and fear she had known.

 

“Let me love you, Olivia.  Let me love you.”

 

The tears came harder.  Something broke and fused back together seamlessly inside Olivia at the gentle words, and Olivia knew something new had happened between them.  All of her life she thought sex was the ultimate expression of love and desire, and just when she thought she knew it all, Natalia had come along and shown her she knew absolutely nothing at all about love.  To say, “I love you” now seemed almost trite and meaningless at the emotions that flooded her.  There wasn’t a word for what this was.  She had never felt anything like this.

 

She could do nothing but hold on tight, and let Natalia lead in this dance that only she knew the steps to.  Slowly, her eyes slid closed and her body relaxed, falling into an exhausted sleep in her lover’s arms.

Natalia stroked the soft hair under her chin, kissing the top of Olivia’s head and easing her into sleep.  She never imagined loving anyone like this.  What had started out as teasing and joking had turned into so much more.  She couldn’t describe what had happened or where it had come from inside her.  Her body ached and quivered with the banked fire of what she had started and it still burned unfulfilled.  But it was more than the physical desire that shook her to the core.  It was a profound sense of completion.  As her shaking hands caressed Olivia’s locks, a prayer she didn’t realize she had asked for was answered and lying in her arms. 

 

***********

 

She looked around the gazebo, noticing every detail.  Lanterns hung between the posts and sheer white fabric was draped around and between them.  More fabric was draped around the outside and Olivia looked down to see more white running underneath her feet and down the steps.

 

“She’s beautiful.” She turned her head to see Doris staring past her, and her head turned immediately to see Natalia walking under a canopy of vivid purple wisteria.  Her white gown shimmered in the morning light making her look even more like an angel than she already was.  Her hair was loose and curled around her face.

 

Olivia’s heart sped up as Natalia locked eyes with her and smiled.  “My God.”

 

***********

 

This had been the day that Natalia had dreamed about as a little girl.  She never had a face to go with the person across from her, but from as far back as she could remember, she had dreamed this.  Standing in a gazebo so much like this one, feeling a love so deep and profound she had no other way to express it than to give her life and heart to the person sharing this moment with her.

 

She never broke eye contact with Olivia as she ascended each step, coming closer to the dream in her mind.  She was stunning in her cream-colored Donna Karan suit and four inch heels that made her more statuesque than usual.  Her hair was loosely pulled back and blonde highlights framed her face.  The sparkling green eyes seemed to dance as she smiled.

 

Natalia reached for her left hand and slowly slid the diamond ring on her finger.  “As it has always been, so will it always be.”
 

Comments

[wkgreen.livejournal.com]

Awwwww.. very sweet. :)

Waiting for next chapter. :)

[ceridwyn2.livejournal.com]

Just beautiful imagery of them holding each other in bed. Lovely.

[bsofthewest.livejournal.com]

The tears washing over them and sealing their bond...just perfect.I love that sex was not the goal, yet you got to the most intimate of feelings. Well done.

[skeeter451.livejournal.com]

That was lovely dear. You had no need to worry. I totally "buy it." There will be plenty of time for smutty goodness later on in their relationship. Right now they need to affirm their love and profound thanks to whatever powers that be that they are both alive to share that love while grieving someone who they both cared for deeply and who loved them both is gone.

--->Susan

[snuffnyc.livejournal.com]

i thought that was pretty damn beautiful. no need to be nervous. :)

[sinjenkai.livejournal.com]

Lovely

[geekgrrllurking.livejournal.com]

So beautiful! I thought the crying in each other's arms was incredibly intimate and healing, exactly what they both needed after everything they've been through to get to this point. And the gazebo scene is wonderful. Great job, nothing at all to be nervous about ;)

[ttandme69.livejournal.com]

wow....beautifully written....so intimate without the physicalside of love.

Also, 3 chapters in 2 days...whatever we did to deserve such a treat...I am greatful and hungry for more.

Merry Christmas...Lisa

[authorw.livejournal.com]

This was so great.
Such raw emotion!!!!

[suzotchka67.livejournal.com]

no need to worry about this chapter. it was beautiful, and it totally fits in with their current situation. grief, and fear, and relief and such profound love that it overwhelms them. i totally get it. :)