Otalia drabbles - What Now?

[calliopes_muse]

Title: What Now?

Fandom: Otalia

Rating: PG

Disclaimer: Not mine, they belong to CBS.

Spoilers: For upcoming episodes, yes.

A/N: This will probably be a series of drabbles helping me deal with the imminent WoD and its aftermath. I’ve never really done drabbles, but I have to get the emotions of this out there.

 

Part 1

 

I didn’t know what to do, how to console her or reach her. I made the tea and turned to head out to the bench where she was curled up, looking blankly out into the darkness. This had been an emotionally draining day for everyone, but no one probably more so than Natalia. I couldn’t help but stand here at the screen door looking at her defeated form, knowing I had caused this by opening my mouth.

 

I knew I should have just shut up. I never should have said anything and if I hadn’t, she’d be dancing at her wedding reception right now, and I’d probably be blitzed out of my mind. But here we were, probably more confused than ever. Okay, she was.  I was okay. I loved her, was in love with her, and I told her, changing everything between us. Hell, I’d tell Father Ray right now if he was standing here. I had felt the pain of self-denial, almost lost all that mattered, and I was tired of the pain. Now, we had to deal with a new kind of pain, and I wasn’t sure how to help her get through this because I didn’t understand it.

 

I walked around in front of her and reached out with the mug in my hand, “Thought you could use this.”

 

She didn’t say anything or even look at me, but she took the hot mug and curled up again. I sat down next to her, not sure what to say.

 

“Want to talk about it?”

 

She took so long to answer that I thought she didn’t hear me. I was about to get up to leave when she finally responded, her voice cracking, “Not right now. Later? I need time to think.” 

 

I hung my head, fighting the tears back that seemed to be endless for me these days, “Sure.”

 

A few minutes later, she stood silently and I was sure she was leaving me out on that cold bench alone, not wanting my presence any longer. She stopped next to me and even though I didn’t look up, I could feel her eyes pinning me down. Slowly, her fingers reached out and caressed my cheek, and I closed my eyes at the flood of relief that coursed through me. That simple touch was enough, for now. It was going to be a long road, but we were going to be okay.

Comments

[wiccan13good.livejournal.com]

Thank you for posting *big grin*

[ceridwyn2.livejournal.com]

Sigh. Oh Gods, how am I going to make it through Liv's confession. Bring out the tissues.

[sinjenkai.livejournal.com]

Very Nice

[witchlesbian.livejournal.com]

OMG...Liv's confession is going to be euphoric...the neighbors will be able to hear me screaming OMG down the block! Great piece!

[tweyelite.livejournal.com]

MORE! must have more fic!

I can't freaking WAIT till Olivia tells her. The scene to end all scenes. And with these actresses u know its going to be oh so poignant and oh my gawd I need to stop thinking about this.. lol

[brighteyedcat.livejournal.com]

kudos! writing 1st person is so tough (i think!) and you wrote for olivia very nicely. looking forward to the others to come. :)

[nnnjtu.livejournal.com]

Naww... that was sweet :)

[xamanthe.livejournal.com]

Poor Liv! these two are going to be my undoing. This fic captures them so well. Cudos!

[lostnfoundcause.livejournal.com]

Awwwww. I loves this fic, but not as much as Olivia love Natalia. :]
And I can't wait for that to happen. *big eyes with tissue at the ready* No I will not cry. *eats some crying/comfort food* See me not crying. *cries a little* lol

[geekgrrllurking.livejournal.com]

Aww, so good! I can't wait for the show to catch up the all the fic out there. Poor Olivia, you just want to hug her all the time. Well, and other stuff too, but we won't go there ;)

[ralst.livejournal.com]

Aww, that was so sweet.

[karjens40.livejournal.com]

Oh very touching indeed. Though how Natalia could possibly NOT know, given the looks at the wedding shop, I don't know. heh.. This was a lovely lovely story and the ending made me go mushy on the inside.