calliopes_muse: (Default)
[personal profile] calliopes_muse

Title: Proof

Fandom: BSG

Pairing: Starbuck/Kat

Rating: Probably R.

Warning/Disclaimer: Not beta'd and not mine. Too bad. *sigh* Nope, they all belong to some incredibly brilliant people like David Eick.

A/N: I have recently become addicted to this Battlestar Galactica thing and now I know what all the fuss was about. While I’m not new to fanfiction, BSG is a new foray for my writing. I know how hardcore BSG fans can be so I’m a bit nervous about this one, almost as nervous as I was with my first Xena fic (and I was damn nervous then!).

A/N2: This takes place during the confrontation between Starbuck and Kat in “Scar.” That scene begged for something, so I’m pretending that Lee didn’t come in and interrupt them.

 

She drives me crazy, completely frakkin’ insane! Not that I’m far from that edge anyway. In fact, I’m damn close, so frakkin’ close I can taste the blood in my mouth, the blood from where she had punched me.

 

Godsdamn it, the girl had balls. Then it hit me. She’s me. She’s just like I was a few years ago, hell even a few hours ago – arrogant, reckless, and crazier than a cat in a room full of mice. If she’s that much like me, then she must be just as scared as me. Scared of this mad, mad world we’re trapped in, floating in a metal can through space chasing after or away from other metal cans, praying to the gods that we live to see another day. Grabbing any small piece of joy and humanity that we can. That’s what Lee was, what Sam was…proof that we were human and flawed, that we could love and hate, frak and kill, with equal purpose and intent. The toasters don’t understand losing yourself in laughter and sweat and moans and liquor, but humans do. We know the pain loss brings and the joy of finding comfort in another.

 

I told Lee that I couldn’t remember their names, but I can, every single one. Every single man I’ve lost, and I see the all too familiar challenging glare in Kat’s eyes and I realize that I don’t want to see her fly apart in pieces in the sky or end up laid out on a metal slab in the morgue. I don’t want her to be one of the many we lose, because if we lose her, I lose myself. I can’t have that. I can’t have another piece of my humanity yanked from me. These moments of joy are too fleeting and could end too soon, gone in a flash of gunfire in a matter of seconds.

 

Kat and I danced on this edge between joy and pain. Even the fighting proved we were alive.
 

A moment passes as my instincts kick in from the punch she delivered. The throbbing of my lip matched the pounding of my heart, the adrenaline in my body pushing me to do something, anything, but I couldn’t hit back. Because she’s me. It’s in this moment that two fighters, two soldiers in a war we didn’t ask for, fight not against each other but for each other, for a humanity that’s on the brink of destruction. The kiss I pull her into is a testiment to our humanity. It’s the one bond that a machine will never understand. They’ll never understand how passion, love, hate, and friendship can get so mixed up. 

 

I strip her down and spread her legs, letting my tongue dance over scars she’s endured from battles won and lost. It’s a communion, a coming together of equals in a shared destiny. She gives me her body – compact and strong, stretched out over a desk – and I, in turn, give her my strength, my promise, my honor. As a soldier and a leader by her side. I vow to not let Kat be a name I’ll ever forget.


Date: 2009-02-13 05:55 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] theastolat.livejournal.com
Mmm gritty and charged with emotion. Hot too. Love. If you've only just seen up to "Scar" I hope you enjoy the rest of the series. Hope to see more of your fics.

Date: 2009-02-24 05:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] calliopes-muse.livejournal.com
Thanks! That scene just screamed subtext to me so I had to play with it. I'm into Season 3 now (around Ep 6), and I'm completely addicted! In a way, I'm glad I'm watching it now because if I had to wait through that hiatus I think I would have hurt someone. :)

Date: 2009-02-13 06:45 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] geekgrrllurking.livejournal.com
First of all, *SQUEE* you're writing BSG! *happy dance*

Nice fic! I always felt that Kat and Starbuck were on similar paths. I think they have a great funky subtexty vibe to them, but then again Starbuck has that vibe with just about everybody on the show *g*

Hope you keep writing BSG!

Date: 2009-02-24 05:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] calliopes-muse.livejournal.com
God! Starbuck is SOOOO freakin' gay! They can try to force her with Lee or Sam, but I swear that girl screams gay standing still. LOL

And don't get me started on Cain's subtextiness!!! Holy frak, she's crazy hot! *ahem* Sorry, I get carried away with BSG these days. *shy grin*

Date: 2009-02-13 10:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] steppenwolf-20.livejournal.com
Ooooh.... you found BSG *ggg*
I still have a lot of catching up to do, but I've seen the first three seasons thus far.

I can't remember this scene, but I like what you made of it.

Date: 2009-02-24 05:11 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] calliopes-muse.livejournal.com
I just got through S3 Ep 6. This show fraks with your head...I LOVE IT! And the subtext...OMG...the subtext! *goofy grin*

Date: 2009-02-24 05:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] steppenwolf-20.livejournal.com
I'm at 4x14 ATM, but I gotta say: So many series and not enough time *g*

Soooo, who's your favorite??

Date: 2009-02-25 02:14 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] calliopes-muse.livejournal.com
LOL...so true! If I keep up at this rate, I'll have caught up on all the DVD's by the time the last ep airs. That's what I'm shooting for anyway!

Hmmmm, my favorite. God, that's hard. I do love Starbuck. She's just badass, and there's no way she's straight! Even though she was completely nuts, I loved Cain too. Of course, she was a lesbian so she had to die! Arghhhh...

You know who I really liked that I hated to see die? Billy. He was a sweet kid and I liked him with Dualla. They were a cute couple.

I do like Kat and Racetrack. Oh, and as far as Cylons go, I liked Gina. Actually, I like all the 6's so far. At first, I didn't, but she's grown on me. Though I still can't figure out why she has a thing for Baltar. He just drives me nuts.

I really can't name one favorite. The closest would probably be Starbuck though.

Date: 2009-02-25 10:28 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] steppenwolf-20.livejournal.com
Oh Balthar.. I think he's my least favorite character. I like Boomer/Athena/Sharon *g* and Helo.

Do you know that Lee (Jamie Bamber) plays on L&O UK?

Date: 2009-02-25 03:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] calliopes-muse.livejournal.com
No, I didn't know he was in that. Did you know that Helo (Tahmoh Penikett - what a name?!) is on Dollhouse now?

Oh, I love Boomer/Sharon (whatever she's going by at the moment!*g*) too! Actually, while I was watching an ep last night I realized how much I like the Helo/Sharon pairing. I usually care nothing for straight pairings, but I like them together. Though I wouldn't complain if Sharon and Kara hooked up. *wg*

Date: 2009-02-25 03:07 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] steppenwolf-20.livejournal.com
Did you know that Helo (Tahmoh Penikett - what a name?!) is on Dollhouse now? Duh.. well yeah *g* I think we talked about the series already *ggg*

Yeah, I'm not taht big a fan of straight pairings either, but I really like Helo/Sharon together.
And of course Kara and Sharon are a great pairing. There are a lot of good pairings in this series!

Date: 2009-02-25 03:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] calliopes-muse.livejournal.com
LOL...it's old age. I can't remember what I said 5 minutes ago so nevermind me! ;)

Yeah, there are some great pairings on this show.

Date: 2009-02-25 03:19 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] steppenwolf-20.livejournal.com
Oh and did you know that Grace Park (Boomer) and Dee were on Dark Angel?

Date: 2009-02-25 03:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] calliopes-muse.livejournal.com
No, I didn't! That's another show I need to catch up on. I missed it when it was on.

Date: 2009-02-13 03:25 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sofiemae.livejournal.com
Hard to take,and gritty to read...I can't believe you are writing BSG now and just maybe, I may yet find myself immersed in another fandom...I'm only partially stuck on this one.

Very enjoyable and it fitted with the tone of the show perfectly...thanks for writing and I hope to see more.

Date: 2009-02-24 05:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] calliopes-muse.livejournal.com
Thank you! Seriously, you have to write BSG gritty. There's no other way to do it. Come over to the darkside. We have cookies and we'll totally frak you up if you don't eat them. LOL Sorry, I'm addicted to that word now. *rips the F, R, A, and K keys off my computer* Th_t should _ix th_t! ;)

Date: 2009-02-16 11:07 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladyvictory.livejournal.com
Thank you. It seems like everyone forgets about Kat, but she was akin to the blood running through a person's veins. Definitely a worthy tribute.

Date: 2009-02-24 05:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] calliopes-muse.livejournal.com
Thank you! I liked Kat, especially in that episode, though I think she was being a bit arrogant considering she had taken those pills to keep her edge. Then again, she saw what Starbuck was doing to herself and called her on it. Any good soldier would do that for the sake of the squad.

Date: 2009-10-05 01:51 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] yessirstarbuck.livejournal.com
This is great, I really enjoyed this piece. Totally the scene I wanted to happen! "Scar" pretty much drips subtext all over the flight deck.

Profile

calliopes_muse: (Default)
calliopes_muse

May 2014

S M T W T F S
    123
45678910
11121314 151617
18 192021222324
25262728293031

Most Popular Tags

Style Credit

Expand Cut Tags

No cut tags
Page generated Jul. 8th, 2025 01:31 am
Powered by Dreamwidth Studios