WMC fic: Mutual Need

[calliopes_muse]

Title: Mutual Need

Rating: PG

Pairing: Lindsay/Cindy (WMC)

Spoilers: I couldn’t let the moment go at the end of the last episode “FBI Guy.”  The look on Cindy’s face was so intense and Lindsay looked so lost that I felt like something had to happen after that.

Disclaimer:  Not mine.  Wish they were…at least Cindy anyway.

Archive:  Ralst of course, as always.  Others with permission, if you ask nicely.

Unbeta’d…read at your own risk.

 

Mutual Need

By Calliope

 

Cindy stood by the window in Lindsay’s living room.  Jill and Claire were saying their goodbyes while she pretended to be finishing her drink.  She couldn’t bring herself to leave, not yet.  She had never seen Lindsay – strong, tougher-than-nails Lindsay – show any weakness or fear.  Tonight, when they were all told the news of the Kiss Me Not killer, she looked like a child lost in the mall – scared, alone, and vulnerable.  It wasn’t the woman she had fallen for, but she couldn’t help but love this version of Lindsay even more. 

 

Lindsay 2.0 made Cindy feel something deeper, more intense.  It was an emotion that had never been elicited from her by anyone before – protectiveness.  Her intimidating, fearless cop friend had spent her life looking out for everyone except herself.  She was even willing to let this monster destroy her if necessary as long as it stopped him from hurting anyone else.  But whoever looked out for Lindsay?  And not in a fatherly way like when Tom hid her away.  But in a way that set her free and made her safe to let her guard down.

 

She read it all in Lindsay’s body language.  The way she slumped down in the oversized leather chair, closing her eyes and wrapping her arms around own body as if she was trying to fight a chill that only she could perceive.  It made sense now why Lindsay shut them out.  It wasn’t just a way to protect her friends, but also herself. 

 

It wasn’t until she felt the silky strands of ebony hair against her fingers did she realize that she was reaching out to Lindsay.  She stopped before she made the mistake of waking her.  This was too much and not what Lindsay needed right now.  She made a move to grab her purse and leave.

 

“Don’t stop,” long fingers reached out and grabbed her wrist.  She was pulled around to the front of the chair, where she could stand between Lindsay’s long, jean clad thighs.  Cindy held it together until she looked up into warm eyes.  The tears welled up in her own eyes and suddenly she was choking back sobs.

 

Images flashed in her mind of what she had seen the Kiss Me Not killer do to his victims and she saw Lindsay’s beautiful face mangled, her rich dark eyes cold with death, the lips she had dreamed of kissing sealed shut for eternity.  She struggled against the arms circling her, heard her voice raw with fear as Lindsay tried to calm her.

 

“I can’t lose you,” Cindy gasped out between sobs. 

 

“I’m not going anywhere.  I promise,” fingers stroked slow and steady through her hair, until her breathing leveled out and the tears subsided.  Cindy nestled her cheek against the warm skin of Lindsay’s exposed chest.  Her arms wrapped loosely around the taller woman’s waist while her hands started to trace invisible lines in random patterns along her back.  She reveled for a moment in the sensation before it hit her that she had fallen apart in her friend’s arms.  So much for being strong for Lindsay, she chided her own weakness.

 

It was a fleeting thought that disappeared like ether when she felt a reciprocated touch of a hand caressing the base of her neck sending tingles down into her toes.  Cindy understood that being strong and fearless took many different forms because it took everything she had not to crumble into a million pieces from the sensations a mere touch from Lindsay elicited from her body.

 

Little did she know that at that very moment Lindsay felt ten feet tall and invincible.  She needed Cindy to need her, tonight more than ever.

Comments

[gigi2690.livejournal.com]

"Little did she know that at that very moment Lindsay felt ten feet tall and invincible. She needed Cindy to need her, tonight more than ever."

I don't usually aww out loud at fics, but I couldn't help it after reading that part. I love how Cindy is serious and yet still in character. In the past few episodes we have been given a glance at a more serious and protective side of Cindy, and this fits perfectly with her growth within the show. Fantastic work :)
gigi

[calliopes-muse.livejournal.com]

Wow! Thanks! I was worried that serious Cindy wouldn't work, but she couldn't be 12 in everyone's mind forever so...

I'm glad it worked.

[diamondforever.livejournal.com]

I agree with gigi, I loved that last line. And I'm we're all continuing to write off of the large amount of subtext we are fed every episode. :P Thank you for that. Awesome job!

[calliopes-muse.livejournal.com]

Thanks! Hey, we have to do whatever we can to continue amusing ourselves, right?

[racethewind10.livejournal.com]

*sighs happily* oh very nice!

[calliopes-muse.livejournal.com]

Thanks!

[grumpybear1031.livejournal.com]

I loved it...

[calliopes-muse.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you did!

[shatterpath.livejournal.com]

I loved it! Good to see character development and a way for each of them to remain strong at the end.

[calliopes-muse.livejournal.com]

Thanks! It seemed like the right thing to do. If I was in that situation, I wouldn't have been able to joke with Lindsay or act like nothing's wrong. Cindy is much deeper than how the character was initially portrayed and it's slowly coming out. I wanted to build on that some more.

[shatterpath.livejournal.com]

The lack of joking around suggests an existing ease between them, as does the breakdown and how Linds responded. There being no awkwardness between them is reassuring for what (hopefully) is to come.

[calliopes-muse.livejournal.com]

Good point!

[revolos55.livejournal.com]

Ditto what everyone else said. Very sweet scene, I can see it all in my head and want so much to see it on screen.

[calliopes-muse.livejournal.com]

No kidding!!! Me too!

I think we should all start writing our own episodes.

[acertainjustice.livejournal.com]

sigh... It was brilliant, it just brought me back to the sad reality that there are not going to be anymore WMC for a bit.

On a happier note, the last line was really well done. It captured lindsey's character so well. She looks all strong but all she really wants is to be wanted. which works well, since all Cindy does is want her!!

[calliopes-muse.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I got that line in my head about 3/4 of the way through. I liked it so I had to find a way to get them from point A to point B so that line would work.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_miss_frost/]

I loved it just like others.
Keep up the good work.

[calliopes-muse.livejournal.com]

Thanks!

[shaych-03.livejournal.com]

very nice. i loved the "lindsay 2.0" line. so very geeky and so very perfect :)

[calliopes-muse.livejournal.com]

It sounded like a quip that Cindy would have had in her head. Glad you liked it!

[jello-o.livejournal.com]

Those last lines drew the entire fic together. I was ready for a comforting!Cindy and then Lindsay ended up comforting her, but only because it comforted herself. Love it. Very sweet, in a angst sort of way.

[calliopes-muse.livejournal.com]

Glad you like it!

[pibby.livejournal.com]

That was beautiful :) I really like your writing style, I hope you'll do more of this pairing!

[calliopes-muse.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I love Lindsay and Cindy together (one's bouncing around in my head right now -- the muse won't shut up!) so I foresee more to come.

[triniliyah.livejournal.com]

Lindsey 2.0 heehee loved that!

this was so awesome, very touching. very well written.

[calliopes-muse.livejournal.com]

Thanks!

[crimsonwhisper.livejournal.com]

That was good. Its nice that you showed a different side to Cindy.

[calliopes-muse.livejournal.com]

Thanks! Cindy is a lot deeper and mature (at least in my world) than she's given credit for.